"The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in Him;
though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds Him with His hand."
Psalm 37:23-24
Ethan is expected to be discharged Monday.
He is coming home on oxygen, 2 breathing treatments,
6 medications, percussions, and suctioning.
He had none of that when he was admitted.
Accepting this has been difficult.
This week I have stumbled.
In more ways than I can count.
I have felt frustrated.
Overwhelmed.
Selfish.
I have questioned God...
and myself.
There have been moments
that have been so mind blowing,
head spinning,
life altering hard.
And days when I have just been tempted to...
run.
"When you can't...
God can."
I found myself searching...
for wisdom.
For comfort.
For guidance.
But the truth is...
I already know.
I have no right to be angry.
I have no right to expect things to be easy.
And yet I fall into these traps again and again.
Because when we are weak...
it is easy to fall.
And yet still...
I know He can make great and mighty things out of my weakness.
