Friday, December 21, 2012

Why Ethan?

"For I am the Lord your God
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you 'Do not fear;
I will help you.'"
Isaiah 41:13

2 years ago we met Ethan in a little hospital room in Chicago for the first time.
I will never forget the way he fit perfectly in my arms.
And how his eyes connected with mine,
as his little hand reached out to pat my cheek.

     December 2010

     December 2011

     December 2012

For the 3rd year...he will be hospitalized.  

There are minutes when I am drowning. 
When I cannot believe he is going through more.
Where I question God "Why Ethan?".
And selfishly, often...
"Why us?".

Because it is hard.
And truly, my heart is breaking.

And then there are moments when I 
feel we have the strength of 
ten armies.

When I already know the answers...
"Why not Ethan?"
And...
"Why not you?"

God is our great and mighty healer.
He brings miraculous restoration.




5 comments:

  1. You are amazing and an inspiration to many. I love you. Ethan is so blessed to have you as his mommy.

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  2. I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to help you. I can't be at the the hospital. I can't be anywhere. I'm still here even if you don't want to realize it.

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  3. We don't know one another but I know what it is to have my precious baby boy suffering. My heart is with you and my prayers are for you and your precious boy. Ephesians 3:21 Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us. I pray this for my Levi daily. THe Lord be with you. Jennifer

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  4. Please know Ethan will be in my prayers! What a precious precious boy!!

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